MMXOVOXVI

Ya..
That's the fact..
That we still couldn't get THE CUP back after 18 years of efforts..
And we watched in our own eyes that THE CUP is taken away from others from our homeland...



How sad it was, but the sadder thing is some of our countrymen did not even support our national team, but instead blamed them for losing THE CUP..
THEY know ONLY to scold..
But did nothing good for their own country..
THEY remember only their loses..
And never precious their victories..
And comment nothing on their victories..
And comment ONLY on their loses...

Our players must win THE CUP back one day..
Not to show to the world that we are so ace in BADMINTON..
But to shut THEM up from giving RIDICULOUS complaints...

Credits to all players who led our country to the Semi Final..
And credits to all supporters who stayed until the very end of the match, and share the glories and shames of our nation...

MMXOIVOIX

So, in such a glimpse..
Three weeks had past..
Since the first day I entered the new company...

People there are nice..
Friendly and close..
We smile and laugh everyday..
And have meals together always..
Everything there is just good..
And I'm satisfy with it...

But, it seems like I've forgotten all my great hopes..
All promises that I've done to myself..
And strong desire on wealth...

Perhaps, my strength had reached its limit..
And this's the life I deserve..
I should really learn to precious everything I have now..
And stop thinking on THOSE THINGS first...


My Current Life:
Sun   : Church, Badminton, Photography
Mon  : Work
Tues : Work, Badminton
Wed : Work, Badminton
Thur  : Work
Fri     : Work
Sat    : Not sure.. :D

MMXOIIOVII

I really ran out of ideas..
I've tried my best on job hunting..
But no respond from them..
Now, seems like my family have out of patience..
Keep asking me about my job..
And persuing me to do it quickly...

I know that these are all out of my control..
But, what can I do besides bowing down my head..
For the whole day, I am in bad mood..
And my family too...

For almost twenty years, I've studied..
And these are what I get now..
I have no big dream..
And I ask only for sufficient three meals a day..
But, seems like a simple 'dream' like this couldn't even be acheived if I still fail to get a job..
Twenty years...
And now..
These simple things are now what I am worrying about..

Perhaps, I should really do some changes in my life..
Do something very different from what I've studied..
And pass everything to God..
If HE really exist...

MMXOIOXIX

Finally..
I received a call..
From a company that I did apply for..
And the person-in-charge arranged an interview session with me..
Finally...

However..
As I said before..
I've lost my patience..
And when I saw the number on my phone..
I already suspected that it must be an interview call..
But, I didn't feel happy nor good..
As I already felt tired being an engineer..
Anyway, I still scheduled an interview session with him..
And of course, I will do my best during the interview...

Whether will I get hired by the company or not is already not important..
For I already had a plan..
And I will really consider its feasibility..
And invest once I see fit...

MMXOIOXVIII

Since the last 28th of the month..
I keep on searching for jobs..
Trying everything that fits my requirement, and also the companies'..
But until now, after one month of efforts..
They return nothing..
Like a stone thrown into a deep sea by a deaf..
Even a thump couldn't be heard...

My patience has reached its limit..
And I am reluctant to wait any longer..
For I do know that even if I get a job..
My life is going to be the same..
Or even worse...

Or, is it better if I change?
To a field that I've never been into it??
To a business that I've no experience on it??
I can feel it's feasibility..
But, I doubt on my ability..
But, courage, I do have...

I am a man with plenty of time..

But poor in wealth..
So free..
Yet, so bond...

MMIXOXIIOXXIX

Finally..
It came to an end..
That I lost my job that I once felt proud of it..
And thought I would work there for a long time..
But, everything just totally out of my childish expectation...

After serving there for a year and a half..
It threw us away like tissue after used..
Cheap and already without usage..
And dirty if it keeps us...

So, on 28th of this month..
I left..
With smiling face, but tearing heart..
As I really miss the life there..
So easy and happy..
And people respect each other..
And talk without differentiating the level of position..
And I was really please to work there..
But, the decree from the top seemed to end all these..
And the date as written in the contract agreement, is my last day in office...

My department's annual dinner happened to fall on the same day as my last day..
I attended that event, fooling myself, and treated it as my farewell party..
The event was great, and special, and the most interesting among all events that I have attended..
And everyone was enjoying that, and I was too..
Although, rain fell on that night..
But it did not spoilt the event..
And yet, the excitement went even higher..
And this continued until midnight..
Some went back with lucky presents in their hands..
Some went back without anything..
But, I can sure we all brought back unforgetable memories...

The night reached its peak and ended with cheers..
And the time when I reached my house was already twelve in the morning..
I stood alone on my balcony..
And there was only breeze accompanying me..
Brushing my face from the opposite direction..
As if comforting me from being jobless...

I looked up to the moon in the sky, not full, but almost..
Yea, like the moon that day, it reflected my life in Intel..
Good but not perfect..
And I recalled everything that had happened in my office...

So happy to remember..
So sad to recall...

MMIXOXIIOXXI

I am now 24 years old..
24 years of 365 days, plus 6 leap years..
So, it is my 8766th day on earth.. :)

I laid on my bed last night, hardly fell into sleep..
And I recalled my good time during my childhood..
How I wish I could return to the time that was without worries and troubles..
And I still remember that I was a very shy boy and cry easily during my primary school study..
So naive and new, and thought the world is full of kindness..

But, thing changes during my secondary school study (form 1)..
When I was misunderstood in assisting a theft case, in a book shop next to my school..
The owner of the shop scolded me in front of all visitors..
And most of the visitors were students of my school..
I was so helpless, and tried to explain..
But, my words did not get his trust..
He took my IC, printed it as photocopy..
Hinted me that he would report to the police..
I couldn't do anything, but to apologize to him in order to end the case easier..

It was really an unforgettable thing that happened in my life..
How shame was that being scolded in front of so many people..
And being misunderstood as a thief, but actually not...

Since that incident, I learned to become strong..
And I did not cry easily like how I was before, knowing that crying cannot solve problem..
And learned to refute, and say no for everything that I feel not good for me..
Learned not to endure too much..
Learned to show my temper..

Anyway, it's now a past tense..
And it wasn't his fault nor my fault..
Just a story of mine to share..

I spent my 24th birthday in my office and my house..
I went back home after my work, and took dinner with my family which prepared by my mother..
And I did enjoy that..
After that, I open my facebook accont..
And found that there were many wishes from my friends and relatives..
For the whole night, I was replying all the wishes..
Although I didn't go anywhere on my 24th birthday..
But, this year is the year I received the most wishes among all my birthdays..

Thanks all and Merry Christmas!!